don't psychoanalyze me lol
I got pinged by shortkut, and honestly it's a little annoying that I keep having to say I'm not playing, so I posted again.
I miss playing, sometimes I get the itch, but it's just not worth it anymore. I can't play at any less than my full ability, which means I'll abuse every loophole, I'll read every post 6 times, I'll lie and manipulate with literally any evidence I have, snd I'll spend way too much time doing all of it.
and for the end result of that effort to be the shitstorm I get every single time? it's just not worth it. I have a lot less time now a days than I used to, and I'm not going to use that time on something that ends up with me getting anxious about relationships I genuinely care about. (see: the very public fight I had with Alu, he and I are fine, but I don't want that fucking anxiety, I'm not going to lose relationships over a fucking game of wolf.)
my point being, I don't see myself playing again.
there is no "perfect storm", might I some day decide to hop in, realize why I hadn't been playing in the first 24 hours and wish I hadn't joined? maybe. but it's not going to be from someone @ ing me into the thread, it's not going to be from people blowing smoke up my ass about my "skill" in this game. it's gonna be because I get bored enough to do it.
I'm glad the game is surviving, I still scan the threads (well really I search my name to see if anyone's mentioning me), and I'm proud when I see people refer to my strategies, or quote me, or mention me in whatever other way.
but I just can't devote my time to something that historically upsets people on this website.