Okay, so here's the deal. Vash had me pegged early, as some of you did. I was the Wolf Seer. TD was the Nightmare Wolf. Jon was Alpha, Jawneh was Blind, you guys already knew that.
TD was our main strategist in a lot of ways. He took the lead early, especially after we accidentally got Jawneh lynched (sorry Jawneh). It did help establish some cred, a play Jawneh mentioned doing anyway.
So as the game progresses, Jon is legit busy but laying low, TD and I are staging arguments, etc. After Jon takes his first shot, or around that time, TD drops the bombshell that he was coupled with Raine, who was the Detective. TD laid out some of the plans but not everything.
Jon and I from the very beginning said if any of us were coupled, just do what you gotta do. No worries. Play to your win condition, like we all should be doing. So yeah, business as usual.
TD starts telling me the game is pretty much going to be a town win or Cupid win, and that the wolves wouldn't win. At that point, we had eight players left. Tommy as Cupid, TD as coupled wolf, Raine as coupled townie, me as Wolf, and four real townies.
I started doing the math and realized I COULD win, but I would have to resign my seer powers right away. Resigning my seer powers gave me the ability to vote to kill, and I would be higher ranking than TD. I verified all this with Zell. Note that this was after the tone had changed, TD became a bit bossier and annoyed over the game, the fact it was taking too long etc. We were all getting impatient, but he was noticeably moreso, at least to me.
So anyway, TD wanted me to secure the win for the Cupid team. He got pissed that I resigned my powers without consulting with him, even though he was planning to fuck me over. His primary win condition is to win with Cupid and the coupled player. His secondary way to win is as a wolf. He was playing to his primary, and I was playing to my primary.
I realized if I killed Vash and brought it down to seven, kill Tubby today and eliminate the threat of the beast hunter's trap and bring it down to six, and then kill Tommy tonight and eliminate the 3 player advantage that the Cupid and Couple Trio had, it would lead to there being TD, Raine, Benzine, Kat, and Dean. Raine and TD would vote for Benzine or Kat our of self-preservation or vote for me out of spite, but with me being the primary killing role at night and the only real power outside of a lynch, I just had to make sure that there was a tie or that the couple did not get lynched. If I got to the next night, I would kill Kat or Benzine, and that would lead to TD and Dean surviving with two townies.
I checked with Zell, and under those conditions, the wolves would win. It was within our grasp. But TD got pissed for whatever reason. I think he felt like I betrayed him? I don't get it, not being dense or whatever for once. He was perfectly happy to tell me that I was fucked and there was no way I could win, but when I took control of my own destiny, he got pissed because he had no power in the game anymore.
Anyway, back to the game. I wanted to prove to Cole, Zell, and everybody else, that someone CAN be a big enough piece of shit to win as a wolf. It was never easy, and I used Raine and TD through most of the game, but she thought that they were using me. When the tables were turned, apparently that wasn't cool. I don't agree.
I'm actually not proud of being a piece of shit in the game. I told TD, Jon, and others that everybody is going to hate me after this. I did what nobody else was willing to do and used emotional manipulation, which admittedly, is what Zell wanted us to do. It's the point of the game.
I channeled my real insecurities, used real feelings I've had before of incompetence and frustration. I put myself in the role of a clueless, irritated, sad player who couldn't figure shit out, which garnered enough sympathy that I weaseled out of several close calls, like Kat's Loudmouth play, Ben's Judge play, and several other close calls. I was a big fraud, a piece of shit, and I connived every other player in the game except maybe Jon.
I apologize. It wasn't really worth it in the end. I don't agree with TD or Raine being butthurt because they were going to fuck me over first, but I do feel bad about deceiving the rest of you, and if TD is legitimately this upset, then I feel horrible because even if I don't agree with why he is mad, it doesn't mean I want him to be, and I definitely don't want him to quit the whole forum over it.
I was fixated on being the first wolf player to actually win under Zell's rules. I was willing to do absolutely anything. I crossed some lines, but I was willing to, and I own up to my actions. If you all hate me, then I'm sorry that I was a fucking conniving horrible piece of shit.
