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I’m sitting here tying to find the right way to word this, and that’s all I keep landing on.
Earlier today, my better half wasn’t feeling well. She felt like she had a migraine, felt tightness in her throat, and had trouble taking full breaths without discomfort. There was some chest pain, but, similar to what you would attribute to an anxiety attack. It wasn’t enough to alert her, initially, as someone who experienced a mild heart attack when she was pregnant in her early 20’s. I tried to get her to lay down and relax, and after a few minutes, we realized that wasn’t helping matters any. That’s when we knew something beyond anxiety was going on.
She had a heart attack. She’s 35 years old. They had to open up a 100% blockage in one pathway with a stent.
Hours later, she made me go home to rest. I didn’t want to leave her side, she didn’t want me to leave hers. We both knew that it would be better for her to just lay there and rest without looking over at me every couple seconds to check in on me, because that’s the kind of love she gives me… she could literally be recovering from a heart attack, and her concern is for me. Meanwhile, I’m sitting here with complete disregard for myself. She knows that, and her way of forcing me to care for myself is to send me home to eat, shower, and attempt to get some sleep.
Instead… I wanted to reach out to you all. We’re not as young as we used to be. Get that weird rhythm checked out. Get that headache that won’t quit checked out. I don’t care if you’ve glazed over every post I’ve made, disagreed with any point I’ve made, or just think I’m a dick for bringing that kind of stuff up at a time like this. Make this the one thing I say you take to heart. Literally. Take care of yourselves. There are people out there that love you, and would be devastated if anything were to happen to you. I came so close to losing the person that I love today, and one of very few people that love me. I’ve been through some of the scariest shit you could imagine… from being mauled by a dog as a toddler, to being stabbed and shot at as a teenager, to regularly being assaulted and put in life or death situations for work as an adult, and none of that compares to the thought of waking up tomorrow without the woman I love. Someone, somewhere, feels that way about you, whether they’re a partner, family member, or friend. They’d be devastated if something happened to you.
Please, take care of yourselves.
Earlier today, my better half wasn’t feeling well. She felt like she had a migraine, felt tightness in her throat, and had trouble taking full breaths without discomfort. There was some chest pain, but, similar to what you would attribute to an anxiety attack. It wasn’t enough to alert her, initially, as someone who experienced a mild heart attack when she was pregnant in her early 20’s. I tried to get her to lay down and relax, and after a few minutes, we realized that wasn’t helping matters any. That’s when we knew something beyond anxiety was going on.
She had a heart attack. She’s 35 years old. They had to open up a 100% blockage in one pathway with a stent.
Hours later, she made me go home to rest. I didn’t want to leave her side, she didn’t want me to leave hers. We both knew that it would be better for her to just lay there and rest without looking over at me every couple seconds to check in on me, because that’s the kind of love she gives me… she could literally be recovering from a heart attack, and her concern is for me. Meanwhile, I’m sitting here with complete disregard for myself. She knows that, and her way of forcing me to care for myself is to send me home to eat, shower, and attempt to get some sleep.
Instead… I wanted to reach out to you all. We’re not as young as we used to be. Get that weird rhythm checked out. Get that headache that won’t quit checked out. I don’t care if you’ve glazed over every post I’ve made, disagreed with any point I’ve made, or just think I’m a dick for bringing that kind of stuff up at a time like this. Make this the one thing I say you take to heart. Literally. Take care of yourselves. There are people out there that love you, and would be devastated if anything were to happen to you. I came so close to losing the person that I love today, and one of very few people that love me. I’ve been through some of the scariest shit you could imagine… from being mauled by a dog as a toddler, to being stabbed and shot at as a teenager, to regularly being assaulted and put in life or death situations for work as an adult, and none of that compares to the thought of waking up tomorrow without the woman I love. Someone, somewhere, feels that way about you, whether they’re a partner, family member, or friend. They’d be devastated if something happened to you.
Please, take care of yourselves.